Life is crazy. Just the other day I had to think about what strange paths it takes us. When I finished school two years ago I could have never ever imagined that I would be travelling around the world, blogging, youtubing an even earning money by doing so. In school, I always envied those girls with the good cameras and the pretty profile pictures. Truth was: I used to suck at taking photos and I was one one of the last people to sign up to Instagram.
When I was small I used to love being in front of the camera. My dad always used to film holiday videos (amateur style) and whenever I saw the camera I used to jump in front of it, to document our travels and share my opinion about basically everything. Sometimes my dad also tried to get Julia in front of the camera to make her talk. Whenever that happened, I had to defend my reporter job and push her out of the shot (not very nice I know- sorry Julia!).
When I considered what I should do/study after school I oftentimes got the advice: “What did you like to do when you were younger? What was your dream job growing up? Do something along those lines!”
Well that sounded like a good idea, however my dream jobs as a kid ranged from tennis instructor, doctor, painter to teacher. At some point I was also certain that I wanted to study physics after watching a documentary about life after death and how that could be investigated by looking at another dimension in physics. Moreover, when my grandma died I promised myself to study medicine and find a cure for cancer. Turned out none of that was right for me.
Now, I am slowly starting to realize that somehow, whenever I had considered what I used to love as a child I forgot about some of my biggest passions. Number one being talking and reporting (as I previously mentioned) and number 2 being writing.
I have always loved writing in school. Whether it was a short story or a poem analysis- writing was my thing. Do you know that feeling when you get Goosebumps, because you are in your zone and everything feels so right? I get that feeling when I write a text that is meaningful and close to my heart.
Anyway, I think that life sorts itself out if you let it and don’t rush into things. Imagine if I would have followed my initial plan and studied medicine right after school? I think I would be suppressing my creative passion and felt miserable. Right now I actually have no clue where everything is going, but I know it is going in the right direction.
I would love to continue working with my Blog/Instagram and travelling the world, which is my number one Inspiration.
So far this has been a lot of talking about me, but basically what I want to bring across is that anything is possible if you dream big enough. You can work your ass off, but if what you do doesn’t align with your passion and “true calling” it will get you nowhere. When I was in school I always told myself: “I want to be successful when I grow up, I want to have my sh*t figured out, have a good amount of money so I can live carefree and pursue my goals to the fullest.” Well, I am not certain how things will turn out and but I don’t think we should be ashamed of our dreams. Sometimes if you tell others about your ambitions, they will tell you to be more realistic or put you down, because somehow in our society dreaming big is often seen as a sign of arrogance. However, this is simply because others oftentimes don’t want to see you do better them. Ignore that, because by focusing on your dream and believing in it you are one step closer to achieving it.
Finding your way in life oftentimes also means letting go of stuff that is just not meant for you. For some time, I used to be obsessed with the idea of becoming a really successful model, I wanted to get signed with the best agencies and work full time. I ran to thousands of castings, tried to get my hips to 90cm and repeatedly got angry at the fact that I am only 174cm tall (which is a little too short for modelling). Somehow, this whole modelling thing didn’t work out for me, which I only now understand why. It thought me so much, like how to pose in front of a camera, what a well composed picture looks like or how fake adverts are, but I am glad that I don’t have to do it for a living. I still do modelling jobs in Munich for online shops or catalogs (which is more for the money than because I actually love it) but I guess you will never find me working full time in the industry.
By letting go of the of forcefully trying to model full time I made space in my life for things that give me back so much more and that are in alignment with what I want to be doing on this planet.
Sometimes certain things aren’t made for you and that is ok. If something doesn’t come easy and feels like a lot more work than fun, then maybe it is just not the thing for you.
If I have learned something in life, then it is to never limit yourself to anything. Just because, you were born in a certain place at a certain time in a certain body, to a certain family you are not defined to to be anything. In this life you can choose your path and the ONLY way that you will every be successful in anything is by doing what you love.
Promise me one thing: Dream big!