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Goodbye Cape Town

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Dear Cape Town, Nothing went as I had planned it out and I am now leaving you behind to fly back to Germany, with no apartment to return to and no intention to spend the next years in your city like I had thought I would.  Still, I assure you that this is not going to be a final goodbye.

 

Why?
Because I still love you.

I love the seemingly endless ocean that you are located next to, the beauty of your nature, the relaxed lifestyle, the people, the festivals in summer, the beach days at Clifton, the markets, the hikes, the delicious restaurants, the sunset walks by the promenade and the energy that that had me hooked from the first day on.

I really want to thank you.

The time that I have spent living in Cape Town has been amazing and life changing. It was the kind of time that I will one day refer to as “my youth” and that I will proudly tell my grandchildren about.
I made incredible friends and I fell in love.
When I arrived in September 2016, I honestly didn’t think that I would leave Cape Town behind after only 9 months. At the same time, I also didn’t expect to fall in love and to be sitting on the plane back with an aching heart, thinking about how I am going to be missing a boy from Cape Town, who has changed my life around.

I know it didn’t go as I had planned it to.

I had initially planned to live in your city for the next 3 years, whilst studying at the University of Cape Town.  I suppose right now would be the perfect time for me to drop in the generic saying: “Life is what happens whilst you are busy making plans.” I quickly realized that university in Cape Town didn’t feel right for me and together with a sickness in my family and the longing for certain aspect of European life that I never knew I would miss; I knew I couldn’t stay.

What’s next?

I am not going to permanently move back to Munich. The reasons that I left my home town was to be independent and to experience something new- I surely don’t want to give up on that. For the next months I want to travel again, because travelling inspires me and has always guided me in the right direction in life. During that time Munich will be my home base, but I am going to keep my eyes and heart open for new opportunities and places along the way.

I will see you again soon.

Don’t worry, I will be back in October when summer in South Africa starts again. During those months, there is no better place to be and I can’t wait to be reminded of why I fell in love with you in the first place.

I must admit that with all the personal ups and downs these last months, I have forgotten to value your charm, thus I think it is good that we take some time apart so that I can remember why I fell in love with you, Cape Town, when I first visited in January 2015.

Do we have a future?

It would be my dream to spend my life between Europe and Cape Town, always chasing the summer. Unrealistic you say? Maybe. But hey- one can dream.

For now, I am scarily free and unbound regarding my future. No plans. No apartment. To ties- just me and the unknown. I don’t know where my journey will go, but at this point all I can do is trust the path I am currently following.

Cape Town, I know this was all very unexpected, emotional and spontaneous- but it was an experience and that is what life is all about: experiencing, making mistakes and living.
Who knows: maybe one day I will permanently move back to you. Maybe one day I will have my kids playing at one of your beaches and then I am going to tell them about the best time of my life that happened right there.

I am going to tell them about the fun I had, the experiences I made and the people I met.

And I am going to tell them how I fell in love: with a boy and with a city.

Yours truly,

Janine

 

cape town helicopter view

Cape Town from above

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View over Lion’s head from Table Mountain

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jolie janine boyfriend

Alex & me

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darg hout bay

Playing with the puppies at DARG in Hout Bay

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My favourite view- the drive from the twelve apostles to Cape Town

 

23 comments

Tania 29. June 2017 Reply

So schön geschrieben! Abschiede sind immer traurig aber es ist wenn auch schön die Liebe (Stadt) zu haben zu der man immer wieder gerne zurück will. Die andere Liebe will man aber doch lieber immer bei sich haben und nicht getrennt sein. Dir alles gute :)!

    Janine Jahnke 29. June 2017 Reply

    Ja da hast du vollkommen Recht! Zum Glück sehe ich beide in nicht all zu weiter Zukunft wieder.. xx

André 29. June 2017 Reply

Hey!

Ich bin dir bisher nur auf Instagram gefolgt und war nie auf deinem Blog, aber den Eintrag musste ich dann doch mal lesen.. Ich habe auch ziemlich genau 9 Monate dort gelebt – mit Pausen, aber immerhin. Und ich kann das echt gut nachvollziehen, sicher nicht alles, aber das Gefühl sich dort mehr zuhause zu fühlen als hier (in Deutschland), das schon!!
Was immer dich wieder zurück gebracht hat, es wird auch wieder Gründe geben “nach Hause” zu fliegen. So halte ich mich jedenfalls am Leben! 😉
Danke für den Eintrag. Den zusammen mit “Down South” von Jeremy Loops waren gerade eine ganz nette Ablenkung.

Viele Grüße,
André

    Janine Jahnke 29. June 2017 Reply

    Hey André, Danke dir. Kapstadt macht einen schon irgendwie “süchtig”, aber für mich hat es leider in diesem Abschnitt in meinem Leben nicht gepasst. Freut mich, dass dir der Eintrag gefallen hat! Liebe Grüße, Janine

Barkan 29. June 2017 Reply

Did you and alex break up?
You say no ties, but isnt alex a tie?

    Janine Jahnke 29. June 2017 Reply

    Hahah no we didn’t. He is also planning to leave Cape Town after he finishes university this year, so he doesn’t really tie me anywhere 🙂

Natali 29. June 2017 Reply

I hope you will find your ways through and I feel like you are a free dreamer who will only end up with something that you truly love even though society tells you need to go a direct way. you are so brave to take such a decision and to follow your heart!! I hope you appreciate the chance that you take your own decisions and you have your freedom to just be and to travel around. All the best <3. I live in Germany in Freiburg. Whenever you visit, you have someone there

    Janine Jahnke 29. June 2017 Reply

    WOW WOW WOW & Thank you. Your comment is so amazing and thoughtful, I really appreciate it! I am quite scared and insecure about the future, but I am just trying to trust the process.I really hope that I will find something I love! Thanks so much again for your kind words x

mimi 29. June 2017 Reply

ohh what a beautiful thing is to have someone that it’s so hard to say goodbye to !! Farewell my friend I’m sure there’s even more amazing things to come 🙂
Love From Chile xx

Vanessa 29. June 2017 Reply

They say “life is a journey, not a destination.” And “it is rare to truly LIVE, most people simply exist.” I love that you let your heart guide your decisions on where to go and what to do because you may not have a ‘stable, reliable’ (aka boring) life, but you certainly live and that’s rare in this world! Living passionately can be painful and make you feel like an outcast at times but you will be one of the few in the world who will be able to say “what a life!” I am so happy for you, I know how hard it can be to have your plans change so quickly but life is only going to continue to take you amazing places. If you ever visit Florida, let me know! You have a friend here 🙂

    Janine Jahnke 17. July 2017 Reply

    Thank you so much for your heart warming words! They literally made my morning. Will definitely let you know if I am ever in FLorida xx

Sophie 30. June 2017 Reply

I know exactly what you mean about the incredible Cape Town and South Africa in general. I spent my summer travelling jo’burg and Cape Town. My heart aches to go back ❤️ I am Welsh and like you have strong family ties (although my uncle live in Cape Town in a gorgeous apartment over looking the V&A). I hope you find happiness ❤️

Imani 30. June 2017 Reply

Hey Janine!

I’m so happy you got to experience South Africa and you will be back soon.
Wishing you well on your future adventures!

    Janine Jahnke 11. July 2017 Reply

    Thank you Imani, really appreciate it! x

Anna Christina 1. July 2017 Reply

Liebe Janine,

danke für diesen unglaublichen Beitrag. Man merkt wirklich, wie sehr er vom Herzen kommt und so hast du es tatsächlich geschafft, mir Tränen in die Augen zu treiben. Ich habe diesen Februar ebenfalls in Kapstadt verbracht und habe mich ähnlich wie du in die Stadt und ihren Vibe verliebt. Dennoch wäre ich auf Dauer einfach “zu deutsch”, um hier permanent zu wohnen (bei mir muss immer alles schnell gehen usw.)
Ich verfolge dich wirklich schon lange, seit du mit deinem Instagram gestartet hast und noch in der Abiphase warst. Und allein aufgrund deiner Entwicklung seither bin ich mir sicher, dass du deinen perfekten Ort oder deinen perfekten Rhythmus noch finden wirst. Und bis dahin verfolge ich gerne weiter die Reise, die dein Leben ist.

Liebe Grüße

Anna

    Janine Jahnke 17. July 2017 Reply

    Liebe Anna, Danke für deinen Kommentar. Ich habe beim Lesen wirklich Gänsehaut bekommen. Alles Liebe, Janine

Lina 9. July 2017 Reply

Hey, auch zum ersten Mal auf Deinem Blog gelandet. Ganz toller Artikel- fühlte sich beim Lesen an, als hätte ich es selbst geschrieben. Ging mir vor 2 Jahren ähnlich mit Barcelona.
Thanks for sharing and all the best <3
lina

    Janine Jahnke 11. July 2017 Reply

    Danke dir Lina 🙂 xx

Anna 11. August 2017 Reply

Hi Janine!
ich kann das absolut nachvollziehen, der Abschied muss dir echt schwer gefallen sen! Ich bin in einer sehr ähnlichen Situation, ich habe mich absolut in die Stadt Perth verliebt und diese mit Freund hinter mir zu lassen hat mir echt das Herz gebrochen. Der Artikel beschreibt einfach genau das was ich gerade fühle!!
Danke für diesen Artikel!

Kat 10. September 2017 Reply

Im in South Africa :,( Its so sad to know youre gone.. was so good to know someone like you is living in cape town:.( come back soon

    Janine Jahnke 14. September 2017 Reply

    Cape Town will always have a very special place in my heart and I cant wait to go back there soon! x

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