My life these last months has been an absolute rollercoaster ride of emotions. Sorry for using this cheesy saying, but I really couldn’t describe it any other way. If you just look at my Instagram feed, you would probably think I am living the best life: travelling from Italy to Stockholm to the Maldives, staying at fancy hotels and wearing beautiful clothes. I have had some amazing opportunities and great times these past months, which I am truly grateful for, but there have also been other parts of my life, which have not been so perfect.
Whilst I am writing this I am asking myself: why am I sharing this with thousands of people on the internet? I am not doing this for attention or for anyone to feel sorry- I am more so doing this to share the life lessons I learnt during those “downs” with you.
One of the hardest things over the last years has been my dad’s sickness, which has started around 3 years ago, but only got really bad this year. I don’t want to get into too much detail, but he is not really himself anymore and his tragic illness has completely changed our entire family. My dad used to be such an amazing, hard working, ambitious and caring man, to whom I always looked up to. It is hard when someone like this isn’t in your life anymore like they used to be.
But it hasn’t only been my dad, who has not been well. Alex has been struggling with a super persistent virus for a couple of months now, which has made him very weak and not feel good at all. This is also the reason we he had to fly back to Cape Town earlier and why he couldn’t join me on my trip to the Maldives as we had planned to. Even though this is very sad for the both of us, we agreed that its best if he goes back home and 100% focuses on getting healthy again.
What I learnt from all of this is that you must never take the people you love for granted. Nothing in the future is guaranteed, so you must tell them you love them and spend time with them whilst you can.
Also, I learnt that health will forever be the greatest gift. When you see others suffering, you realize that no money or material things will ever make them happy. All they want is to be healthy. If you are healthy, you have to treasure and be thankful for it. Even though we focus so much on material things and money, when it really comes down to it they mean nothing in comparison to the health of our bodies.
Furthermore, I realized that you don’t always need to be strong. It is ok to cry, to have bad days and to feel lost. Having bad days is completely normal. If it wasn’t for the downs, there would be no ups. The more you connect with yourself the stronger your emotions will be. Being human means feeling and when I feel bad I try and truly embrace my feelings: cry, scream or whatever my emotion may be. All these emotions and feelings are part of our human life experience. If we can’t embrace the bad ones we also won’t be able to express when we feel happy or full of love. Emotional authenticity is so important.
Once again I also feel like this supports what I already wrote in this blogpost: appreciate the little moments, because they will be the big ones one day. You have to appreciate every single moment that brings you happiness and that you can spend with people you love. Fancy trips or expensive handbags could never give me the happiness that I felt when I had that picnic in the park with Alex, when I received the nice message from Julia after we had a fight or when I saw my mom truly happy again.
Life is unpredictable. Tell your friends and family that you love them and live every moment like it is gold.