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My life these last months has been an absolute rollercoaster ride of emotions. Sorry for using this cheesy saying, but I really couldn’t describe it any other way. If you just look at my Instagram feed, you would probably think I am living the best life: travelling from Italy to Stockholm to the Maldives, staying at fancy hotels and wearing beautiful clothes. I have had some amazing opportunities and great times these past months, which I am truly grateful for, but there have also been other parts of my life, which have not been so perfect.

Whilst I am writing this I am asking myself: why am I sharing this with thousands of people on the internet? I am not doing this for attention or for anyone to feel sorry- I am more so doing this to share the life lessons I learnt during those “downs” with you.

One of the hardest things over the last years has been my dad’s sickness, which has started around 3 years ago, but only got really bad this year. I don’t want to get into too much detail, but he is not really himself anymore and his tragic illness has completely changed our entire family. My dad used to be such an amazing, hard working, ambitious and caring man, to whom I always looked up to. It is hard when someone like this isn’t in your life anymore like they used to be.

But it hasn’t only been my dad, who has not been well. Alex has been struggling with a super persistent virus for a couple of months now, which has made him very weak and not feel good at all. This is also the reason we he had to fly back to Cape Town earlier and why he couldn’t join me on my trip to the Maldives as we had planned to. Even though this is very sad for the both of us, we agreed that its best if he goes back home and 100% focuses on getting healthy again.

What I learnt from all of this is that you must never take the people you love for granted. Nothing in the future is guaranteed, so you must tell them you love them and spend time with them whilst you can.

Also, I learnt that health will forever be the greatest gift. When you see others suffering, you realize that no money or material things will ever make them happy. All they want is to be healthy. If you are healthy, you have to treasure and be thankful for it. Even though we focus so much on material things and money, when it really comes down to it they mean nothing in comparison to the health of our bodies.

Furthermore, I realized that you don’t always need to be strong. It is ok to cry, to have bad days and to feel lost. Having bad days is completely normal. If it wasn’t for the downs, there would be no ups. The more you connect with yourself the stronger your emotions will be. Being human means feeling and when I feel bad I try and truly embrace my feelings: cry, scream or whatever my emotion may be. All these emotions and feelings are part of our human life experience. If we can’t embrace the bad ones we also won’t be able to express when we feel happy or full of love. Emotional authenticity is so important.

Once again I also feel like this supports what I already wrote in this blogpost: appreciate the little moments, because they will be the big ones one day. You have to appreciate every single moment that brings you happiness and that you can spend with people you love. Fancy trips or expensive handbags could never give me the happiness that I felt when I had that picnic in the park with Alex, when I received the nice message from Julia after we had a fight or when I saw my mom truly happy again.

Life is unpredictable. Tell your friends and family that you love them and live every moment like it is gold.


Johanna 10. September 2017 Reply

Toller Beitrag. Ich freue mich immer, wenn von dir, mit dem tollen Instagram Profil, so tiefsinnige Worte kommen.

Ich wünsche dir eine schöne Zeit auf den Malediven und hoffe, du hast in der nächsten Zeit auch aus persönlichen Gründen wieder GANZ GANZ GANZ viele Gründe happy zu sein.

Liebe Grüße
Johanna von

    Janine Jahnke 10. September 2017 Reply

    Danke dir für deine lieben Wünsche Johanna- es macht mich schon alleine happy das zu lesen 🙂 Liebe Grüße ♥

Essi 10. September 2017 Reply

Such beautiful words. And honest and true. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. This is such an important content, no matter if you struggle in your life or not. I will send all my strenghts to you from Finland! Be strong and be there for your family. I Love to follow your journey from your instagram and blog. True inspiaration! Enjoy your travels <3

    Janine Jahnke 10. September 2017 Reply

    Your support means the world to me! Thank you Essi ♥

Tim 10. September 2017 Reply

Hey Janine!

First, thank your for sharing this deep look into your feelings.. I think this helps us to see that you aren’t living a perfect life, as you said. But more important, you show all of us that it isn’t weak to show true emotions, especially to the people next to you. I’m sorry about that with your father and Alex and hope that there is a way that both can get healthy soon. Nevertheless, keep up your positive mindset and your happy approach to life, this is what will help you to overcome bad times, too. I also totally agree with you on saying that material things aren’t anything in comparison to health.. although many people live the rat race. I think it is important to spread the word that money isn’t anything and especially our loved ones but also other people profit way more from gratitude, patience and understanding than any quick gift. Thank you for this honest words and stay as true as you are.


    Janine Jahnke 10. September 2017 Reply

    Your comment was so deep and insightful- it really moved me 🙂 Thank you so much for writing it xx

Alexa 10. September 2017 Reply

Hallo Janine!
Das waren richtig eindrucksvolle Worte von dir. Ich glaube, dass dieser Post viele Leute betrifft und ihnen helfen kann. Ich wünsche deiner Familie gute Besserung und einen guten Zusammenhalt. Und dir wünsche ich, dass du weiterhin so stark bleibst 🙂

    Janine Jahnke 10. September 2017 Reply

    Danke für deine lieben Worte Alexa. Sie bedeuten mir wirklich sehr viel 🙂 x

Sophie 10. September 2017 Reply

Hello, I’ve just read your blogpost and I have also been going through such a struggle the last few months. My problems have been slightly different to yours but nevertheless I’ve been feeling really down and unsure about where my life is heading. Reading your post has just made me realise the importance of having special people in your life and to value those who really care about you which is really something I needed to read, so thankyou.
Unfortunately for me, the one person in my life that I needed to be there for me and offer me support is also the guy that has hurt me so deeply.
I would love to read more blog posts like this and hear about your journey and am truly inspired by what you’ve written and it’s so brave for you to talk about these things with the internet. It’s really made me think about my own circumstances and who I need around me in times of need.

Thankyou so much.

    Janine Jahnke 10. September 2017 Reply

    Hi Sophie, I am really happy to read that you could relate to this post. I feel relieved that it was actually “useful” for someone. I love writing these posts and I think I will do more of them in the future. I wish you all the best for what you are going through! After the downs there are always ups 🙂 xx

Natalie Vilen 10. September 2017 Reply

Beautiful text <3 Stay strong and I wish you all the best 🙂 X Greetings from Finland x

    Janine Jahnke 10. September 2017 Reply

    Thank you so much for the love 🙂 Really appreciate it! x

Patricia 10. September 2017 Reply

This post is just amazing I have been following you since the begining and I’m so proud of your progress. I wishh the best for you your family ( specialy your dad) . Lots of kisses and love from Spain!❤️??

    Janine Jahnke 10. September 2017 Reply

    Thank you Patricia! And also so cool that you have been following me from the start 🙂 x

Nahema Tiamou 10. September 2017 Reply

Janine this is exactly what I needed. Thank you for bringing this to light. ?

    Janine Jahnke 14. September 2017 Reply

    and thank YOU for your lovely feedback! xx

      Kat 23. September 2017 Reply

      Goeie dag 🙂 im Afrikaans ?? love your vids perfect sisters- one question, you dont drink alcohol? And eat healthy vegan food? Im vegan too, ??

        Janine Jahnke 24. September 2017 Reply

        I do drink alcohol from time to time 🙂 And yes, I follow a vegan (and mostly healthy diet). So cool to hear that you are vegan too! All the best, Janine x

Monia 10. September 2017 Reply

Wundervoll. Die Zeilen machen mir meinen Sonntag wertvoller und ich werde die Gedanken mit in die neue Woche nehmen!

    Janine Jahnke 14. September 2017 Reply

    Danke dir Monia 🙂 x

Anna 11. September 2017 Reply

What I learnt from all of this is that you must never take the people you love for granted.
– Stimmt, auch ich musste das dieses Jahr leider auf schmerzliche Weise erfahren. Mein Vater bekam im Februar die Diagnose Gehirntumor und schon am nächsten Tag verstarb er. Bei solchen Schicksalsschlägen merkt man, was im Leben eigentlich wirklich zählt und all die kleinen alltäglichen Sorgen kommen einem dann ziemlich nebensächlich vor. Ich wünsche deinem Vater und deinem Freund alles Gute! Und weil ich auch deinen Blogpost zur Uni gelesen hab- mach dir keinen Stress deswegen, denn letztendlich zählt auch das nur zu den nebensächlichen Dingen im Leben und du wirst bestimmt noch den richtigen Weg für dich finden. Liebe Grüße aus Österreich

    Janine Jahnke 14. September 2017 Reply

    Liebe Anna, Es tut mir so leid mit deinem Vater. Als ich das gelesen habe, sind mir fast die Tränen gekommen. “Bei solchen Schicksalsschlägen merkt man, was im Leben eigentlich wirklich zählt und all die kleinen alltäglichen Sorgen kommen einem dann ziemlich nebensächlich vor.”- da hast du vollkommen Recht!! Ich wünsche dir und deiner Familie weiterhin ganz viel Kraft! Ich hoffe, dass es auch bei mir bald bergauf geht! Alles Liebe, Janine

Ellie 13. September 2017 Reply

Such a wonderful post and so true!<3
Especially that we take the people around us for granted and we forget that it's not!<3
It's a huge gift!<3

    Janine Jahnke 14. September 2017 Reply

    You are so right! Thanks for your comment x

Lily 13. September 2017 Reply

Janine, mir kamen die Tränen, als ich das gelesen habe ….ich wünsche dir und deinen Lieben von ganzem Herzen alles, alles erdenklich Gute und schnelle Genesung. Bleibt stark und gebt niemals auf! <3

    Janine Jahnke 14. September 2017 Reply

    Danke danke danke Lily. Dein Kommentar hat wirklich mein Herz berührt. <3

Nerea 25. September 2017 Reply

Beautiful words! We often forget to appreciate the little things and tend to just focus on the big problems. <3

Vibeke 1. November 2017 Reply

True Story Told <3 Thank You

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